“I think you’re ready, Michael,” she said. “You’re reading very well, and I want the big kids to hear it.”
On the one hand, I was thrilled. Of all the students in the class, I was the one Mrs. Northrup had chosen for the honor. But on the other hand, I was scared silly. I was six years old that fall, a first-grader who may have been reading well but who was also the shyest student in the class. Looking back, I am sure Mrs. Northrup realized this, and she had decided the task assigned would do me good.
Of course, being six, I didn’t share her professional and experienced perspective. She’d been a teacher for decades. I just knew that standing up in front of a classroom full of older kids and reading aloud to them seemed about as beneficial for my development as walking straight into the heart of an active volcano.
“Don’t worry,” she assured me. “You’ll do just fine.”
When the time came, book in hand, I trudged through the old hallways of Abraham Lincoln Elementary School, up the flight of stairs to the floor where the “big kids” had their classes, and, moving slower and slower with every step, arrived outside the assigned door. I wished Mrs. Northrup had accompanied me. She could have introduced me to the class, or done or said something to make it easier. But she had sent me up by myself.
I considered turning around and leaving, but realized Mrs. Northrup would get word of such a tactic before day’s end. No. I was stuck.
I knocked on the half-opened door, my heart beating faster, faster. There were sixth-graders in there! They seemed light-years ahead of me, and more intimidating than a pride of lions. The teacher–whose name I have long since forgotten–smiled at me and motioned for me to come in.
“You must be Michael,” she said. “Mrs. Northrup told me to expect you, and I was just telling the class that one of the top first-grade students would be coming up to read.” Great, I thought. More pressure. “Come along in!” she beamed.
I stood in place a moment longer, my mind still clinging, stubbornly, to potential escape routes. But when the teacher motioned for me to come in again, her smile widening, I did the only thing I could think of.
I turned my back to the class, took a deep breath, and sidled through the door. I heard someone in the class chuckle, but I didn’t turn around, wouldn’t turn around. In front of me, the blackboard still contained the teacher’s notes, in crisp, perfect chalk-script, from whatever lesson the class had been learning earlier that day.
No one said a word. I looked at nothing but the chalkboard–I didn’t dare glance back at the class, nor did I look at the teacher. I had a job to do, a task to complete, and I didn’t want to be in any way distracted.
I opened the book to the assigned spot, and began to read. The passage ran one entire page. I wasn’t sure the class could hear me with my back turned to them, but I didn’t stress over it. I just told myself to read the next line, the next sentence, the next paragraph, get through it, and then exit the room.
As soon as I read the last word, I began to side-walk toward the door. I moved as quickly as I could, and I didn’t turn around and walk face-forward again until I was in the hallway, heading toward the stairs, which would take me away from the sixth-graders and their classrooms and their lessons.
Not once, during the entire experience, did I turn to face the class.
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It’s something every writer has heard, often drilled into them with the force and repetition of an iron-clad commandment: “Write what you know.”
We hear this so many times, in so many different places, and from so many reputable sources, it seems nearly impossible to argue. After all, who can argue against the truth? Besides, the advice seems to hold a lot of weight. When we write about experiences, situations, jobs, relationships we have experienced, don’t our words contain more validity? Don’t they resonate more, sing louder and more confidently?
Yes.
And no.
Let’s take a step back. What, exactly, does “write what you know” refer to? Is it to be taken rigidly, literally, basically saying that if I have never been fired from a job, to use a simple for-instance, that I cannot then write about a character in a story who is fired from their job?
Or is it more broad? Maybe, though I haven’t ever been fired, I still can imagine what such an experience might feel like. Perhaps I have been dropped from a sports team, turned down at an interview, caught doing something wrong at home that resulted in less-than-ideal consequences. The feelings I may have experienced during those situations may not be identical, one-for-one matches to getting fired, but do they really need to be?
Or take my first-grade experience related above. It’s a silly old story on the surface. (And that evening, after getting word of what happened, Mrs. Northrup called my mother on the phone to tell her all about it. They both had a good laugh over it, and eventually I did, too.) But the experience also contains a lot of very real, raw emotions: the fear of public speaking; feeling awkward and shy; the fear of performing badly under pressure; the possibility of being laughed at, ridiculed, or rejected; the burden of carrying the expectations of my teacher to represent her class well; the isolating journey up to an unknown, Brobdingnagian portion of the school, inhabited by “big kids”; and so on.
In other words, it is rich with emotional experience, feelings, internal memories that can be “borrowed,” so to speak, when writing about situations that, at first glance, seem radically different and unrelated, but, in actuality, when you probe deeper and drill down to the feeling level, are really quite similar. After all, what do we remember from our experiences, the good ones as well as the bad ones? The circumstances, obviously, but even more so, the feelings, the emotions, the pain or joy, the sadness or elation that resulted.
Writing what you know can be interpreted as only writing about things that are a one-for-one match with your own personal experience. That is a valid interpretation. But I would argue it is an unnecessarily constricting one. A fiction writer uses his or her imagination to create worlds, events, characters that, hopefully, allow readers to enter into the story, become engaged in far-off places, other time periods, or even just the next town over. If we as authors are reluctant to write things beyond the purview of our own literal experience, then we probably should not write fiction at all. With such strict parameters in place, creating a straitjacket on our literary endeavors, speculative fiction would never exist. There could be no time machines or werewolves, vampires or interdimensional voids that carry four seventh-graders to a faraway and alien world. There could be no Yellow Brick Roads or dreams and powers that lift us high up, “over the rainbow.” There could be no Morlocks or Superman or preternatural do-overs in Frank Capra Christmas classics.
Anytime I feel disqualified from writing a certain scene or character because I “haven’t ever done that before” or “been there before,” I just take a moment and think back to that scared, shy, and overwhelmed first-grader. If I just close my eyes and listen, really listen, I discover he has so much to share.
Thanks so much for reading!
–Mike